Raw

All burnt out and Burning Raw all over, Exhausted and delirious, been keeping busy and staying focused as much as possible, Hoovered did washing, but it has still been awful and I don't see it getting any easier... 

had some Kind support from caring neighbours, but it feels like an elephant is sitting on my chest... have not eaten since tue morning, Still don't want to, my guts are squeezed flat, no room except for Coffee n Beer...

this equals any Broken Heart I ever had for a girl... I am emotionally Eviscerated and running on Nerves alone, with a tremor in both hands, Trying hard to focus my mind on the recovery to routine normality, as if... don't know I will ever recover, Don't want to. this is what I deserve nothing less, I fear nothing now