When Love Hurts the Most...

Losing the life/love of another living thing is a turning point in every individual Human existence, 

tell me it is not... (if not your a Psychopath)

The Infinite Void of utter lonely Emptiness is a living part time Hell.. before you go to sleep, and as soon as you awake the thought returns..

Like an Obsession, an impossible possession, that you can and cannot have and yet lose completely... You have nothing; their closeness has gone, only memories... persist...

and only misery continues... by then your a true blue Masochist and just love the pain of Melancholia, it has a sweet yet bitter taste...

Love hurts the most when you have lost it, it immaterial the reason why, You lost it, so long ago, but the memories rumble like deep Jungle Drums mixed with a Earthquake... losing Love is Emotional Death

The rumble is Your Fear the Drums are your failing Heart... beating to its last action... the moment is approaching when your time is UP... That is Universal Equality... 

No one has mastered eternal life, is that a joke, no mortal mind could survive without madness and utter collapse... within 500 years of bidding you buddies goodbye... You will be so Addicted and deluded

you would turn into an "unwritten Play" of a Man who wanted it all, got it, then Lost it... then tried to get a Hard on, but his Dick was dead and long gone...

NO SEX NO LIFE, NO LIFE WITHOUT IT;

A Human WINDOW is approx 50 years, yeah? when you hit 50 just remember you still got a good chance at being Murdered in a Motel, For NO GOOD REASON, aint Life a game of crappy shitty CRAPS.... 

You Throw... then you Throw UP...

For a moment of stolen pleasure, you face years of incarcerated misery and pay all your life to touching a Girl's private parts without permission... 

Never trust a Man With a Hard ON 

He is coming for ya... 

whether you like it or not !

Emma's Stoned...

Had the nuttiest dream about Emma Stone the "Artist" not the Avatar it was the craziest Dream Party I had for while... Her eyes are the Size of Tennis Balls they are too big to be wholesome... I did not touch Her... but we had a great time...

We joked around jerked around... and we jumped off a high dive board, it is the sense of falling that I remember... it went on for so long... it did not end till I woke up... but I did not wake up, I only dreamt I woke up, but didn't... I was still asleep...

sometimes I cant tell the difference between being awake and still in bed... as I wake up I dream I am awake doing stuff, then all of a sudden I am actually still in bed... dreaming of being a wake and walking around... yet still on the pillow...

My most toxic addiction is Sleep, it is my favourite state of mind... not quite here, and not really There either, in the wonderful world of dreamland...

Halfway between leaving your body and still living in a limited world of myopia where only things close come into focus... in a Macro world of tiny details... at the quantum Level nothing seems real, as we know it...

Contemplation, a Tool for life:

Too much Thinking makes Jack a Dull Boy... and turns Nerds into mass murderers... in isolated Winter Resorts... where Doppelgangers entwine in divine Evil

there are many levels and echelons of the Human Thought process... where are you...? Thinking is the activity of a living Soul, you cannot stop it... like multiple decks of cards Shuffled, it never stops until you "stop altogether"

Many people persue the impossible dream, "thats why it is impossible" too many for too many jobs, openings, auditions, Lay downs, get ups, and slaps to the face, You cannot be the person you are Not. so stop trying to be... set your Mind Free...

Accept nothing Expect Nothing and you will begin to get something real... coz Peeps dont like Fakes and poseurs... they prefer Kindness and sincerity... something you may be missing...

Buddha Knew Thinking was a living Burden to try and control it... you dont even contribute to it when you sleep... 

Aforethought is the greatest time you take to evaluate... your fate... Remember Billy-Jean in the song... ignore his advice, you MUST think twice.... or more... errors will occur...

contemplation is much misunderstood... 

Now contemplate your fate... because nothing in the World or in Heaven can Stop it.... You are cooked fried Smoked and damned... and soon the Undertaker will come, and they will "take you away" wearing dark suits and Black ties...

and you will never find your way back home...

Animals are more instinctively intelligent than any Human Alive to-day in 2027, I cam back from tomorrow...

to tell you not too many tomorrows actually happen/ dont worry we will be a snow Globe within 70 years...

Information is Education...

Both good and Bad:

The Human race has never been so well informed, we are the most Educated, Yet still Pig ignorant in other areas who has ever existed, it seems the more sophisticated we get we discriminate even more against other conflicting information, that makes no sense at all... we seem destined for conflict, Go figure...

Humanity is a crock of Shit...

be my witness... Look at the Wars we Deny are actually happening... yet chip the dollars from your simple life... the World is Filled with Vagrants...

What the Hell are we can we, gonna do ?  take drugs and jump off a Cliff, in Hastings....

You are/were the best love of my entire life (as a Human) 

But Dogs have loved me better... though they could not make Chinese Cabbage, and Sausage Soup like you did, 

x

Time takes so long...

We dont have the patients to wait, or the Organic Potentiality to exist longer than a few or more decades.... Time is longer than you can possibly wait...

(I had Time dilation for 40 years, I should still be 32 but shit, thats what happens when you play 5 card Stud with aliens...)

Life is an exclusive Hotel, where you live until you can no longer pay the bill... then you are evicted direct to the Mortuary... 

then the State takes control of your body waste... and have a paupers ending, Like Mozart... God rest his Golden Soul...

Time is the lubricant of Memory, experience is the data collected.... You are a "Juke Box" of the past endlessly replaying the old hits of yesterday... if you are chained to the past, your future will not last.... only burn in the deluge...

on the long boat ride with the reaper, the closer you get to Denial... is where Wannabes tumble down the Booze bottle... and get slowly Euthanized by self destruction...

it is only Here and now you need to worry about, but that may never come to a blind spirit with no mind left... rotted by self neglect destruction and wasted idolatry... Don't wait for the future... Create it,... with thoughts alone you can negotiate the vertical wall with only fingers guts and determination... risking your life for the Thrill... 

if you have the depth of imagination to create a world for fun in your mind, go for it, laziness will annihilate you, but creation is a personal act of divinity, it takes only a little will "daily" to do it.. You alone on a keyboard can write true fantasy into existence, just a selling an outline

Who lives the best life, those who risk it all on black... or go home a loser... he who shits out leaves the game... with an empty Tummy... no free Drinks in Vegas anymore they skin you alive, and charge you by the "Breath" just to be there... Sinners Beware;

The harder you look for a Fortune the easier Discontentment becomes...

Dreams hardly ever come true, except when your not looking for it...

I wish you the Luck of the Devil himself... Now go to the play Slots... good luck little Honey... Xxxx

You already Won, coz you met me... to direct your desires in the correct Air-stream at the right ethereal cruise altitude... and maximum Renewal and rejuvenation...

Meet us all Here '~' 

Secret numbers...

371... 4ever

careful where your eyes go...

Eye To Eye Contact is very profound, in Gorilla World it means confrontation... same in human contact, You better have the right to show Higher intelligence or get ripped to pieces... or declaim as loving and Lame... to the robbing rats and vermin of society... the filth of humanity, (of which I am one) everybody is Guilty, nobody is Innocent...

Never look pretty girls in the eyes... it leads to a demolishing surprise... She dont won/t want to get near to you... Keep respectful and Modest... or be food for the Wolves of modern society... and bitches with substantial incisors...

Never Give anything away... be the neutral blank of a supreme victim... be the immediate Buddha... ready even for The nuclear Blast... but his existence is the greatest Art of all human experience... the shadows are the last trace of a moment that is gone forever...

we will all be that Shadow (on the wall)... that future living eyes will wonder at:

Please do not DESPAIR... it wont hurt one little bit: it is only life that Really hurts...

Death is a Breeze, the perfect holiday from worry stress and adultery... get a Ticket NOW....

Money is for Burning...

Nature Has no MERCY... for your Money... your life pain sorrow agony or limitless GUILT..(or anything)

Come on... Where did it go...You ate it Wasted it, Blew it and Threw it, how incredibly foolish we people can be... while trying to shop wisely... we cause fires with piles of Cash, sadly this new plastic money causes noxious fumes that will actually kill you in a closed room... like a Vault or a cheap coffin...

Numbers are not enough... Money is the currency of the Wicked... use it wear it buy or persue it... you get "Logged" as a soulless Misanthrope with no Ejection seat...

What does Only Money Buy you... 3 dimensional emptiness that looks like Luxury... the temptations of the Gut impulse Genital reflex and sheer Greed alone are beyond anyone can usually  resist... this is the delineation between the bad n the good... seek for pleasure at your Leisure and you will experience divine retribution from the Matrix... 

Money never existed it was a promise nobody could ever keep, Debt is the most severe Regret.. Suicide tonight to make everything alright... at least your "Honey" gets the insurance Money... "as if" then She gets robbed by a Gigolo, and ends up overdosed... 

Thank You For Your Love...

Never forget to say Thank You for the love and patients... you never deserved in the first place... you may never get a second Chance... Love is the greatest ever Achievement of all time... To be loved is Deliverance incarnate... 

It is easier to Die, than find True Love... but searching for it is half the Fun... Good Luck Lonely Lovers Everywhere... it takes a miracle to get to paradise... but miracles are everywhere you seek for Deliverance...

Don't worry about tomorrow live for just to-day... for this moment and the next Second.. nothing else Actually Matters...

The future is IMPOSSIBLE until it happens...

Thanks baby...

I feel You

Somebody reads this Blog just after 12:00 AM GMT: most days... I thank you for your intelligent affection... We dont need to touch; you know I love you already... Wanna meet up in 3-D and a taste of reality...

let us share food TV and Trips together as one... it makes life really feel real: it's a steal...

See you later than expected; lets have some FUN... I got the cash to buy it... give it a shot lets try it...

Calling your hand, ALL IN... you cannot lose... Only die for a while... Hear my Prayer...

Join me in Praise of empty space... 

we come from and go to: may your Journey be swift.