Sunday, 19 May 2019

Re-calibrating Expectations

Well, fick me as the Irish Say... it was a disappointing day, But where would we be without Disappointment hum? it stops you "getting ahead of yourself" and in so doing, it re-calibrates your expectations, otherwise everything would become Bland if you got what you wanted all the time, and didn't have time to think about unforeseen circumstances beyond your control... and amend to them in "REAL TIME" without HYSTERICS get my drift hu?

wot the Fick am I talking about?.... well I am trying to condense a collection of things into one sentiment if you will... you must always survive things that would otherwise BUG You

is a moment of Pleasure worth a lifetime of suffering... will an iota of real significance be achieved? is it possible to Evolve in One Lifetime, yes but For me too late, you grasp what I can express and get a gut feeling, I languish as all do at one point or another, in a Day in a Month a year moments are all I get these days, most days are Mythological extended encounters with the Dear Old World, the beauty of it is Spiritual Transcendence itself...

It can be found in a single Dead Petal of a Flower, but few can find such an equivalent in the Wide World... Those who seek Beauty of Thought must stop thinking altogether, like Death suspended, which equals = Misery ended: so easy and yet for most almost an impossible achievement, now is never Arrested: run with Time or Against it, You never win the Tides of change

SO I went to Drone But Sadly it didn't actually happen But was Excited at the possibilities that exist all over the place, just to be there and to think it possible is almost enough... in fact, it is enough:

Every part of each day and second is a memory in the making, you never 'STAY IN THE MOMENT' it always transcends to another future moment always ongoing... but you knew that already hey, sorry to waste your time if you are looking for PORN, Let me tell you STOP LOOKING the best porn is in Your MIND, if you have a mind to start with, like droning its exciting but in reality it is terrifying till it gets home....

I still love my Dog more Car Second Drone third...


Tuesday, 14 May 2019

Self Actualisation

OMG what another wonderful day in the presence of Buddha, if you will, My Day felt like "Liquid Silk in the soul" Guess What I did to-day... uh

I went Flying baby, with a pre-navigated route I did last night at 5 am, in fact I made about 8-11 preplanned flights all through the night, I am losing weight, coz I am in Love and dont wanna eat, it is too time-consuming, However nice it went in, Food Kills you

anyhow, I am getting so much more awake aware alive alert and Attenuated to the maximum Thought of the moment, just like ZEN Buddism, the passionate focus on the moment with total interest is an undying love affair that cannot end, SATORI NIRVANA PEACE WITH GOD, whatever you may call it,

I am Kissing Clouds literally and dont care when I am taken to the Other side because I have found a Pathway to my Destiny, and each step requires courage, but the results are Pathologically Positive in the Body and the Mind... each thought crests on the Wave of another,

and to surf on the wave successfully is the Purpose of Thought, Alpha, Beta, Delta, and Theta, but most of all "Coherence at the moment of Realisation'' that in fact "YOU ARE ALIVE" (still alive)

Run Scream Explore Create the World is your Canvas, I am still learning the hurdles of the ultimate transfer to the LIGHT, but in the meantime, I am enjoying life, more than you could fit in a Shoebox...

BEING IS THE ACT OF LIFE IN A CALM SOUL
and sharing with others, to help them along...

OK Here is today's less than Perfect Offering But I am happy that the Deliberate attempt to DO SOMETHING actually happened... and you can witness my slow progress into meaningful artistic achievement, But My BLOG is my best feature so far.... ha ha '-' if Drone-ing can equal my inveterate natural stream of limitless Eloquence, I may give up Going to the Toilet... and washing again



STATS: 90% pre Navigated on PC, 10% freehand used 25% of Full battery Max Height 435ft distance travelled only 3,225ft, Happy to get it Home! more Flights all Summer Long, and each one gets a tiny bit better, at least I think so... Light is the CANVAS a Drone is a BRUSH, I couldn't have said it better Myself... Oh, I did, Applause... much Laughter and passing of Toxic Wind...

OK I went back and re-edited this a double speed, I think its better, like I say leaning all the time, never stopping... here it is ----


Sunday, 12 May 2019

Just a Perfect Day

Had the most Dangerously Exciting Day for a While... went flying "with confidence" I have a new Degree in; sanity and confident control over this little life and my Drone, Today I went to 2 places and to my disappointment the First Flight Program I had planned to do, a 1.8 mile Tour of an ancient estate, 

Not only would it not PURGE the Mission, but the reason it gave was also the Altitude was too High!, So instead of fixing the problem I just Flew LIVE i.e. hands-on, as I had 3 full Batts and had hardly used the one inserted, Later I went to settings and raised my Altitude Limit to 999ft, it was fine after that... 

so reluctantly I took off and Slaved at the controls, a crowd of Kids was very entertained, anyway I flew a few Thousand Feet, My max Range is... wait for it... 16.500ft Yup no Kidding, that's live Flying like I said hands on, but you can pre-program a very intricate flight path that will exceed that and lose all contact with the controller and go 10 MILES away!! fuck Yeah, and after it has finished it will come back to you,

if you have correctly calculated Batt Endurance, and any unforeseen Headwinds etc, etc... but it can easily be done... I would rather trust an Algorithm than my poor judgement and lack of fluid control... it is as faithful as a Beloved Friend... Ahhh...

oh yeah... but I would not want to risk my Investment on such a silly long journey... YET: but knowing it will, and could, do that, is very exciting, I could Program it to take off from my home and go even further, then I get in My car and it TRACKS my Vehicle all the way... DUH... my best friends are in Chips... then when it gets there I have pre-programmed it to LAND... piece of cake when you "know how"

I have been Dribbling for Days about this, There is no Limit where you can go and Do this, well; to be Sober and serious it is illegal to fly over 400ft or beyond the line of sight, but who actually cares when the results are so good...

See the flight I did today right here... my first LITCHI Graduation video if you will... Expect more I am a whore for Drones..



Flight Stats: total Distance 10,983ft trip around the landscape reaching 980ft max height AND the ENTIRE flight only used 30% of a full battery, Fuch Yeah... this is superb Kit...

Wednesday, 8 May 2019

Autonomous Intelligence

I have a New AI Friend, and getting acquainted has been an Ecstatic Experience of limitless interpersonal exploration, I am in Love with a vast set of Good Old Algorithms embedded in one Magnificent Program, encapsulating a state of ZEN by approximate Logistic Mathematics, 

Exhilaration 'beyond Description' is the threshold on which I confidently stand, the door to infinite endless deep details of overflowing rivers in harmonic perfection, 'attending and empowering ones very "Free Will" every moment becomes much clearer to assimilate with... 

when you focus with interest, every Scholar knows that... familiarity breeds association, get it?, that is when Learnt Knowledge becomes "Second Nature"... and you free fall into your variation of Artistic creation, This is forever Hun my personal number one... I wanna Marry Her...

Her name is Litchi, and its really Getting Serious: She is BFF with HAL 9000, SIRI, ALEXIA, R2D2 C3PO and the like, Now I have been added to the litany of Idiots Privileged enough to make sweet Sense of it by "Hardwiring New Neuronal Connections'' (the fun of learning something you are truly interested in + real Enthusiasm) "Brains are elastic"

All last night I was burning new Pathways in my Brain, it starts with confusion and some pain, You think you cannot comprehend it all at once, of course, Nobody can, only a Fool expects results before they deserve them...

its like VR inside of VR inside a VR of reality... I am Synthesising in x4 Dimensions (pre-visualising in other words) free as a Bird, a collection of variables into an articulate whole "ahead of time" with degrees of finite adjustments to make as near to perfect the conclusion of a single thought by considerate pre-planning... ending in an internal Vision "Coming to life and Actuality"...

along with Michaelangelo and Da Vinci, the very power of thought becoming an intricate entity with a life, 'of its own

i.e. to rehearse Reality before it is upon you, what a privilege to make all or any mistakes in Prognosis ahead of your cataclysmic errors of Judgement, to Fly free and regain some dignity from the dull 2 plain dimensions of Bed and Depression, I want to be A WHOLE Cyborg, not a trick pony with a smartphone alone in a World of Diverse Possibilities, to have A PLAN is better than NO PLAN, it is as Ordinary as that...

I love computers and what they can do, never before can you be EVERYWHERE, ALL THE TIME, while sitting in shitty Underwear with your dick in your Hand, sipping on lukewarm Coffee, who needs to Go out, huh? 

there's nowhere more interesting to be; than at HOME CONNECTED with a Massive set of Monitors watching the world go round... Reality sucks, in fact, it smells bad most the time...

Yet a deep Muse can lead to a new life of living dreams if you have the right connections and attune to its Complexities Ambiguities eventually leading to an innate Ambient Tranquillity, and Unity with your mind and the Whole wide World... Fuck yeah... 

I.E. the Kingdom of Heaven is at Hand, ''it is right there in front of your face'' just Relent give in and let Go; and live again with the wonder and Fascination of a child... Find a Hobby and get a Life... even if it is Growing Flowers in a Window Box... or Marihuana in a garden shed... 

Without Passion, the Hart has little to Beat for, so it seeks sleep, Wake from the Living dead, GO DO MAKE THINK SOMETHING beyond your grasp and 'aspire to it'

like Shakespeare Said, 
"If you have no Virtues, Assume one"

if you are incapable of that, 
"Just be Polite"

Monday, 6 May 2019

went Up

Got my New s/h Drone out 3 charged Batts, did extensive pre-flight checks and adjustments, Went to several places, Crapped out a few times, then drove on deep into the country, stopped and declined, too windy...

Guess I am a bit Paranoid about flying carefully, coz after about 800ft from you, you cannot see it, or its orientation, that is why the Video Feed is so Important, I didnt use FPV today as it was my first flight with a new Model of the same make as the last one, so the batteries are compatible, so we got plenty of juice...

so I ended up back at the place where I sank the last one, coz people were everywhere, so I parked up got my Chair out and fold up Table, got the backpack out unzipped and forced myself to do at least a Hover or short test flight to see if it functions, and Yeah "it functions" Duh...

Flew for about 7 mins on an already part depleted Batt that I used to update firmware last night etc... and I didnt crash or dunk, I was very cautious, now I have this "better" incredible Machine I want to plan Dawn flights over Emsworth a place I grew up and still miss... and fly over Fields following a Harvester from above... that kinda ting man

Next thing to do is Take the Other drone out before sundown and if that is viable chuck it on the Internet Hight Street.. and make a few Bucks... to think it was totally AWASH in water and still fly's and functions as before!!! I dont see why I should tell the prospective buyer do you? lol...

so now back home feeling Smug and self-satisfied that I actually did what I intended to do for once... High 5 I am off now to Drink a Beer roll a Joint have a Wank and Relax for a few hours, then order a Chinese home Delivery, watch a Movie on my Ultrawide 21.9 Monitor, and probably have another Wank if not too tired...

Thank God I dont have to Be with YOU and pretend to be Friendly, while feeling uptight self-conscious and repressed, as that is what YOU would do to Me... I want to Pick Scabs Squeeze Blackheads and Fart in Peace without distractions like OTHER PEOPLE, who are usually even more evil and devious than I AM...

Most Folk are shallow Plastic and Disposable half-formed Fools who suck the Goodness out of everybody else...

Thanks but leave your SKYPE till another "Season" If you ever learn to be Immediately sincere and without expectations get back to me ASAP

Saturday, 4 May 2019

All dried out...

To my Gob-smacked amazement after 4 days in the AIRING CUPBOARD, the Drone has dried out, but there were glitches, only to be expected, I actually flew it only 3ft off the ground, I was surprised to say the least, and now foolishly I bought another, at least I can use it for a Back up, all second hand, New they cost a fucking fortune M8...

One Glitch was the Camera didnt work to start with, only WITHOUT a Micro SD card, it did Work, then the original SD card stopped it from working so I put a new 32gb SD in, and while pushing it in, I kept repeating it over and over like a symbolic Sex act to rub and wear the contacts...

then it worked and recorded while flying, it found GPS 6 Sat's and it was Ready to Fly, did fly and hovered for a few mins, then I landed it back down, fick Me, I could sell this one, but then again I like to have a back_up of everything... anal retentive like that, No Woman could tolerate it, coz I want Teen fanny for Daytime, and Her old Ass when I am ready to fall asleep... for a quick Squirt... just like "everybody else" lol...

So a Water Pheonix HAS Risen not from the fire but fully submerged for over 10 mins, as I had to drive home to get a BIG HOOK and Cable to tie it to.... God is Good to me I cant begin to tell you the Whole Story, it is almost beyond belief, and now I have a new Second Hand Phantom 3 ADVANCED does exactly what the P3Pro can do, and I now have 8 Batteries theoretically I could Fly 4 hours with battery Breaks,

But now I will take Binoculars To SCOUT the Area for Wires cables and fucking Trees with naked arms.... and I must learn to STAY AWAKE while controlling a dangerous flying Object, Ho Hum 

My greatest satisfaction right now is the Wonderful feeling of REDEMPTION, You can Blow it all and still have something Left... This is Living Proof Good things happen to Previously Bad People... the opposite of the Common inversion that bad things happen to Good People... their problem is they EXPECT TOO MUCH to start with, 

DJI Drones are the Best of the Best and very Forgiving in major Crashes and DIPS TOTALLY SUBMERGED in about 9 inches of fast running Fresh Water, it was UpSidedDown with the gimbal "Just above the torrent" intermittently, Be grateful for the smallest Mercy, The more you do with all your heart to make things better, in tiny ways to make this World a better place, all you give from your Heart can if you are blessed, come right back to you...

One is always Staggered and Surprised when Sweet Mercy is Delivered unto you... Praise God on my Knees I am truly Grateful
AMEN, I will never Forget Boo ever again....

Halleluyah 

Wot is For You, will not go By You...
old Scottish Proverb:




Sunday, 28 April 2019

NDE and me

NDE "Near Death Experience" they come like all fatalistic consequences from a mixture of bad decisions and sheer bad luck... I had a Hot Date 26th, yeah a hot date to remember I nearly lost everything I cared about and could never replace

and if it had gone another way it would have been the end of Me baby for certain sure my mind and my Life gladly with a Noose by own doing...

So what Happened, you might be asking... I had been to another Garage to get a (Race-chip attached) to add more power by fooling the ECU with different demands on fuel delivery, in a nutshell, it Guaranteed 16hp extra, so after the thing was fitted, we went a mile up the road to give Boo a Wee, Testing can wait till later...

so while we were hanging around the Car after a brief walk into dense forestry I sat back in the car and decided to change the Input program, which means tuning IGN on and with a small screwdriver changing 1 of 5 power presets, so I flicked it into 4, Started the Car and Drove Off...

Yes, I forgot Boo, the only thing that matters to me in this fucking shithole of a life I call mine... I was to pre-occupied with my Power increase to remember Her... typical selfish mind-set of a Man playing with Toys, just like the Fucking dickhead I am...

I was driving through deep country and feeling Smug with my new found power increase, then after a mile or so I looked back over my Shoulder and said "Boo" where are you, I thought she had gone behind my seat and so I couldnt see her, then I strained my neck till it almost broke, to see SHE WAS NOT THERE!....

O living Spirit of Christ I was Devastated that I could Forget Her, I screamed like a Woman coz they really display their Gut raw feelings by decibels of Anguish, I cursed God and my Imbecile inherited Genes all my forebears were Farm Workers Thieves and Fornicators from the Gutter of abject poverty in Yorkshire, 

I drove 87 mph up an 11ft wide Country road, not caring about my Stupid Power chip, (but it does seem to work never got to 87 b4 in 3rd gear 4.6k rpm on the RED LINE) every rotation of the wheels was a hold up in my internal PANIC TIME which lasts forever in a few moments and reaches the end of time before The Universe will..

My Distress was at its Lifetime Boost over Maximum, I was on the way killing myself already, if She is not there; I am in for Total MADNESS DISTRESS AND EXCESS OF MANY KINDS, My mentality won't be able to take it, I MUST DIE if She is not there, the ONE THING THAT MAKES MY LIFE HAPPY AND COMPLETE, I had Abandoned thoughtlessly...

There was so much traffic with 4x4's going up and down, I thought she may be a Crushed corpse still half alive, as it was a small 50ft gravel parking place, on a Busy road the Visions that went through my head was a "fast track to hell" My hope was just about giving out, 10 mins have now elapsed, so after almost overheating my Engine, I got there pulled up killed the engine left it in gear to stall, NO SIGN OF HER...

She was not Visible anywhere so I got out and Screamed, Boo My Boo Where are You, With all the Force in me I screamed to get my life back that would surely be over otherwise.. on the 4th Bellowed Over Actor Delivery, I turned around and She was walking toward me from across the road with a wagging tail... (a nightmare on its own across a busy rd) She walked up to me, and Pe@ce came back to Us... Amen +

We had a deep cuddle a lot of snuggling and Nose rubbing with a thousand kisses of gratitude to God, for letting me live on, coz I teel Ya, I would be soon gone, can you imagine me trying to sleep with HER GONE, The WORRY the ANGUISH THE TORMENT people have gone quite badly insane losing an animal friend, go search it is all there...

My Gratitude is Higher with more mass than Everest for the Sweet Mercy given to me, that could so easily have gone very badly indeed. The Nightmares I have been saved from is incalculable. Never say Never coz you will let your own Vow Down, Nothing else in the world can possibly upset me,

and here is an Excellent Example, just To-Day I crashed and totalled My DJI Phantom 4 Pro Drone in WATER, So I did WENT FLYING after all (re: the 5th previous blog) for maybe the last time, Flew 2 Batteries and just coming home on the second Batt, 

I had a mishap, cos my eyesight is not good and My Goggles were too dark, it skimmed a tree by a River and fell in the ("WATER "fresh Drinking water btw: that might make a difference" the only stream for MILES and only 30f wide) 

Dont fuck me I fuck myself it's OK I dont need any help for that I am a low intelligent OLD fat Asswipe and general Spunk stick in a Margarita stirred with pure idiocy... and plenty of Cryogenic ICE...

I could not reach down the 10 or so feet of that side of the riverbank, and from the other side which is accessible by a long slope where COWS DRINK but CROSSING THIS RIVER is a Major undertaking, I was going to go for it, so I waded in not caring about my shoes or clothes after 2 steps I was up to my Thighs it musta been 5ft deep in the middle, and My Shoes got sucked into the Fucking Mud, I barely was able to wiggle them out,

IN THE MIDST OF CRISIS THE SUN RISES, as an Old Man I was very out of Breath and sounded like a one cylinder Cement Mixer about to give out...

I was quite near to Maximum effort I ran I jumped over walls! Fell down and rolled around too.. Fuck me I am so unfit, n Old but I am not so fucked up that I couldnt shag a tight slit for hours on end, if one was available, I am always looking for freshly dead still warm Women lol...

Coz it aint Rape it's just interfering with a Corpse, only carries 6 months you are out in 3, dun it before when I was an Apprentice undertaker in Scotland, Some cracks were SEWN together! So took the Cork out their ass and pleased myself in many ways, mind you, it makes your Dick Swell up that embalming Fluid really Stings, I caught Crabs off a corpse, long buried you'll never trace it, am I kidding, do I ever?

you're a Great audience, all anonymous and yet intelligent and well read, I am fascinated by your fascination! same people keep coming BACK! I hope you are mildly amused by my Diversity of Absurdity, I am an Imbecile with a mind half-formed yet my thoughts and words keep you coming back?

You are the only friends I have got... to know as if you'd want to... we have the Perfect Idiosyncratic platonic yet symbiotic non-involved relationship, sounds OK to me baby...

Anyhow I just bought ANOTHER DRONE on eBay 15 mins ago, but the most satisfying thing about my bad day is: my old Drone might be Broken for keeps, it's in the airing Cupboard upside down and the Central heating is on, so in a week I'll try it out but the 4k Camera is FINISHED, I used to put a piece of sellotape over the sd slot, but thought I was being too Anal, wish I had been it might have saved the sensor 

So I had to Drive home and get a Big Hook which I use to weigh Luggage for Air flight and eBay items that are large and so I wound some electric cable around it to fish it out luckily!? 

it was on its back so I was able after several attempts to Hook it and bring it up, I was pissed alright AT MY OWN IDIOCY, was just about to land after almost an Hour on x2 Batts flying... I got careless and fatigued, Such as a fat lazy second rate loser does...

BUT I GOT MY PROPERTY BACK, and the SD card is still WORKING, and at time of writing am uploading from IT for the first time to my Invisible unknown follower's friends and haters... one of My Drone Vids, of which there are several all equally as Boring and unstimulating as the one I will add down below when its finished, its 3.5gb in size so it will be a while, come back when I have added it many hours Later..

you will see what a fool and a Drone are incapable of... I dont pretend to be a pilot but I sure am a Fucking good Bullshitter/POET same thing if you think about it...

so am I upset, Mmm yeah a tiny weeny bit, but I got My Boo they can take Me tonight but please bring Boo, the most important living thing on this Earth in My life is HER, How can I be sad, I got Boo back from the dead; I am Rich for fuck-sake, but I dont want to talk about Bloody Money... it is Free Love I am short of...

And the slimy carcass of a Willing woman before She Pisses the Bed in excitement and excrement... and her guts Explode with all the Gas and covers the crib in foul smelling fish shit like a whale, well she was Fat, didn't know she was a Shit Bomb, I should have selected another Corpse... 

younger fresher maybe a pre-teen OOH he's a fukin Paedo, isn't everybody Darling? every connoisseur of lifes delights want's the freshest flesh and the softest Meat available, old Birds are for Dogs to eat in the Streets of Stalingrad, Old women are for desperate Men without any self-worth or dignity, Old shaggers are "Seminal Urinals" with all the freshness and innocence of a Public toilet...

so I am happy again (what a remarkable recovery from disappointment) Easy peasy when you got fat wad from a benefactor...


RAW UNEDITED, there is one Good Reverse Zoom shot:
and a few nice moments...

but am disgraced by lack of focus and poor judgement,