The ephemeral C word

That damned C word is so disgusting, what it suggests and represents is a blight on morality itself.. Fucking Christmas, Oh I like Jesus but I hate Christmas Why?...  it is actually the Darkest Period of the year, in actuality, and the most Depressing time or most exhilarating period of a lifetimes memory, too many memorys...

Parents suffer the most, (should have used Birth control) when you wonder did I give them enough... hey; Life is plenty, whats your fixation: its all super hype to generate revenue, Bah humbug...

it makes you reflect on Christmas past, and all that is lost... to time and the City dump, as a 7-year old I remember counting the days down from November and longing for what "I would Get!" not what I would give... so we started off on an incorrect expectation.

christmas is for "Ripping Off and getting short change" dare I say it, it's a cheap illusion and a cop out for second-rate sentimentality...

I remember one Christmas night hearing a funny intermittent noise coming from the Dark front room where I found My Drunken Father weeping quietly, probably crying out of conscience at His Mothers Memory, as apparently, he was Cruel to Her at the end of Her Life, His Father was a Drunk and a Thief, yeah really, I never forgot the little secrets Dad told me when He was Half/Cut on the way to Alcoholic oblivion... again,

My entire Antecedents were either Peasants working in "Leather" and Hat Makers during the French Revolution, and the other half were Yorkshire Gutter Scum like my Dad... thieves Drunks and No Marks... Just like Me, hey Dont history Repeat itself...

INT NIGHT:
Any How back to the night he was crying in the dark Weeping like a baby, I had never seen him Cry before, it was a shock, so I went up to Him, Climbed on his Knees and Put My arms around him, and immediately, He Pushed me off Violently I went tumbling toward the dining table, and hit the side of my face hard; it was only years later I discovered My Jaw is still semi dislocated due to that impact... I knew something was wrong when my teeth didn't align properly then...

that was a Chrismas in 1961, Yup thats a long Haul to carry a memory that far across time... that Year My half/Brother gave me a little LEGO set which was a shock, as he is a nasty cunt by nature;  he never gave ever again?... his Dad was a Jew, who Conned gold from other Jews in the Ghettos before they were transported, He is a cold dead soulless fake to this Day... like his godforsaken Father...

Christmas is Consuming You as you Celebrate it, its a season of Pigs who both Squeal with delight and disgust... and spoilt Kids who get it all yet got no soul to share or Enjoy it with like real people do..

Its when we all turn our back on the suffering of other animals much like us who suffer unimaginable pain and discomfort for our ultimate sensual enjoyment at our big feast of the Dead on Christ Day... 

all the meat you eat makes you stupid and fat like greedy people invariably get, its the time of slightly unbalanced impulse purchases Like I did last week... Spent a small fortune on a "Super gadget item" and got revulsed the moment I received it, now I am selling it on at some good discount to get my 5k back...

a Fool and his/other peoples money... oops "Black is Black" I want my Money back... I wont forget this Xmas its the day Coz Jesus has gone missing and he didnt leave a forwarding address... but his friends "so called" are still sure he is coming back with the Stash?...

The Stash is Ash... So are we if we think giving Presents buys our goodness back from the infinite corruption of our wicked worthless souls... forget it,

Hum fucking Bug.