Power Options...

Computers are the centre of my consciousness... any thing I have ever created was because they exist... it really is an extension of the human Mind to have a Mate who remembers anything you say to it...

My Old Laptop just died on me after a nasty infection that re arranged all My DNS codes... so I could not connect to the web at all, At All.... but I have my backups, I collect Laptops from eBay and have accumulated several many... as they are so Cheap Second-hand....

Power options are something to acclimatise to... When you wanna Go What do you Choose... (check this out)

Hibernate, Sleep, Shut down or Death by hanging... it is always Easier to DIE... x

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when the scythe comes...

you are eating Beef in black bean sauce with Green peppers... (My favourite Chinese creation ever) a fair meal in a reasonable place with an old friend, and outside you see a dark figure at the window looking in on you, directly in the eyes...

you instinctively feel a slow primal fear creeping up on and in you... your having the start of a tiny panic attack, remember panic "is a killer of weary decrepit Hearts"... 

Old men die in panic mostly, or trying to have sex with a younger woman and realising his erection, may have cost him, his life...

blood aint flowed that much since your mother died... 

Misery is just a mouthful away... as you chew that tasty green pepper... a voice only you can hear... appears in your inner ears...

"Excuse me Sir, very sorry to interrupt your cosy evening, but dear fellow, it is "Time to die" not tomorrow but tonight, thats it; your done; cooked and booked... there is no Bail for Hotel Morgue...

after the pain you are about to feel you will be re-allocated to a new field of existence... sorry about your date... she will live to fornicate again... but your dick has inverted back into your body... farewell you wanna be porn star... who went too far... in an old Car...

the shadow of Death is upon us all even at the happiest moments we can feel and remember... it is the sudden loss of normality and comfort that really tears you apart... 

the loss of one you loved and didn't fully appreciate, only too late to languish on the Cross with Jesus Christ himself, failed and impaled... like the low born sinner waster you is, are, was... will ever be...

how do you re-boot a soul to a fully cleansed state of equilibrium... it is the very riddle of existence, your personal Morality really matters... dont mention redemption; your impending torment is like a burn that cold water will never relieve... at times like that suicide seems like a reasonable Honorable alternative...

but your too Yellow to be a Hero... 

no amount of begging or Praying will change anything...

you are officially Eviscerated (gutted like a fish)

4ever... space is so big there is plenty of room for nobody...

Chances of Dying on your Birthday

364 -1 Are you ready to die today, just relax and enjoy it...  from just moments away you start to choke then drop down dead as a Nail... that's meaningless life lol...

You ain't nothing till your a dead something... don't wear a watch it only counts down the few moments you have left, minutes weeks hours years... you are at full speed into utter destruction, just like the people in all classes on the titanic..

be brave show control don't crack be a Mensch...

Tsunami of tears...

The deep forces that made you continue to make your heartbeat... as long as you live you are susceptible to terrible pain... of so many kinds, fear really is the last frontier in consciousness... 

when you genuinely feel no fear, for pain crushing smashing crashing of your weak little frail body into an abomination of nature in its viciousness to destroy you... like a Head-on collision, where the last second is the longest in all time... it will never end looping into a mental infinity that never ever ends...

the Birth of a Ghost is such a Crucial action of fusing body spirit pain and that FATAL realization that, "this is really happening" all of your life you have been waiting for the final moment of death, in the back of your mind it has always been there, and now it is approaching and almost here very near... don't be scared, it is the most natural process in the cosmos... Hey? do the dead ever complain... the cessation of life is the end of 'all strife'...

you always think you have more left than is true, like when you check your Bank Balance and see it is much less than you thought, life is an overdraft you will never pay back... so give up lookin for an answer, just lay down and die...

BUDDAH knows what I mean...

the peace of mind you seek is in the moment you finally find it: which can happen many times in one tiny life, the moment in your personal history when, you learned how to ride a bike, the first time you felt Love for another who filled your head, the first and last time you say goodbye to the lost and gone...

The dread of utter nothingness is the key to it all... there can never ever be absolute Nothing, it is impossible to find any place that has nothing in it... not even Pandoras Box, life is as full as nothing can be... a balloon full of gas is something big from something small...

down at the Quantum Level life itself seems to be a constructed Matrix of vast complexity that is unfathomable and limitless to comprehend or ever understand... yet is always divisible by Pure Mathematics, and sequencing (RE=DNA)

We are numbers in such masses like Ant colony's but in one single being... it is a Lot... the center of the Mind is where the soul lives... 

Lose your life and/or lose your mind, something of your Soul will transit... all pain ends; eventually...