Enjoy consciousnesses..

Thank you God, for my little lot, Enjoy consciousnesses.. lean to absorb contentment.. through the microwaves, and external interruptions.. be a child again in a World of undiscovered Wonders.. just outside of your Electromagnetic Spectrum of perceptions; Your mind basically...

is really all you got!.. the art of mind at its most advanced kind, is to "process information and Emotions correctly".. in a state of heightened arousal yet peaceful and compassionate acquiescence..

Not saying I have mastered it.. but good intentions help so much.. to touch the very mind of Buddha.. you would do if you you could..

so just enjoy consciousness.. in a state of humble acceptance, that you feel think and can see.. but if you desire more, then life will be Hell.. you always have enough, but just dont know it..

consolidate your assets and give it all away.. just keep your begging bowl and soul.. and thank God for another Day..

On Top

Back to Normal.. Nothing upsets me now for very long, that a focused mind cant deal with.. I was a bit blue for a few.. but now I am fully on top of my game & grooving like a Demon.. having seen so much sorrow and loss in the last 5 years.. it would take the Taliban to piss me off... with an RPG.. 


I feel a sublime sense of expectation, that even if it is an illusion, That'll do for me... just love a good illusion.. I feel like a million piece Jig-Saw puzzle that is complete and finally together... and I feel positively Messianic with the cerebral power of peace at my disposal... and have plenty to share and still have some left over.. and I am stone cold Sober to boot... how about that.. dont have any Grass either.. but that doesn't matter either.. self actualisation is a phrase that springs to mind... which feels like what it is..


Omnipotence is the state of mind that contains me in supreme coherance, like a really sensible Grown up.. like a bubbling of excitement is about to burst into hysterical happiness... Why?


Hey that's personal... I cant bleed everything all over the page, use Your imagination, it works for me.. the right thing happened, at the right time and good things come to those Who wait... long enough... I had some help to achieve it.. it's a spiritual awakening.. a beautiful sense of belonging.. and feel I have found my voice,


Have been listening to Free Oxford University education podcasts about creative writing and the history of Art... amongst others, and feel like a poetic Steven Hawking contemplating the Higgs Bosun particle.. only in words and semantics, not Mathematics.. I feel @ peace and limitlessly positive & optimistic.. Nothing can separate me from the love of God.. every thought fits perfectly with the next one like a dazzling Mosaic dancing in my mind...


I feel beautiful inside and out.. and nothing can take it away from me.. the whole Universe is mine, and everything is connected, heart mind body rock & soul...


Wish I could give it to You... hey.. I just did...


Whew... I want to sell it on eBay, but it has no package or mass, so you'll have to take my word for it.. that is the way You receive it.. by word of mouth via text to the Soul.. just to read it will make You whole..




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Still going hard..

Havant slept since last blog, and that was 10:50pm yesterday.. Called A @ 9am, coz he needs sombody to rattle his cage and rouse him, it was pouring with rain all over South UK last night and most of today...He had a Dr's Appointment and as he has no Licence, coz he lost it... x3 times ! for a total of 9 years... I offered to get him there, and after we'd go for a coffee or shop, Drug store was required so we did it all.. he's a tad more perky.. but theres a lotta hell for him to get through till he sees daylight again....


After I went to visit an old friend of My mums in a care home... and took "discounted" flowers to her... they were having "Activity Therapy" so I joined in, and I got a nasty De'javu however you spell it... coz I started to feel like an innmate.. we played Bingo, then memory therapy I guess.. remembering early childhood etc.. and basically interacting, I had to button my lip... coz I wanted passionately to join in.. and interrupt everybody..


I think I am getting prematurely senior... The Saddest thing You hear is that nobody visits them, since their Children took over the House....


Remember Benjamin Button?.. wot a crok of shit that Story is.. you could have told it in 4 sentences... wot a bore... Wot about reality!... Nope its too tragic to be entertaining... it was a Deep expieriance to sit with them today..


It gave me a revelation, so simple you could easily overlook it.. by being awake and "engaged with the present even if it requires looking into the past.. You get happier, and You burn calories.. coz sleep makes you fat.. believe me... I need Lubricating jelly just to get in the front door... My ass is so big I have to Shit in the bath, then shovel it into the toilet... sorry.. (I love disgusting humour)


So after leaving, was already breaking personal records of endurance, and eagerness to be alive & awake... then went to the Garage, coz I got a worry with a new fan belt that only just got fitted.. but worries like that are as nothing compared to the garden of positive conciousness... it is now 4:32pm and I still got some Charge left since getting up last night.. though another 5-7 hrs will see me in the cotton love hole... for all I am worth.. 


I have decided... to; Choose life !!! not the noose of Cowardice and defeat.. and I am so grateful to a certain special entity, who is a receptive spirit and a deeply Unusual and spiritually advanced Woman too.. nothing beats a deep Soul... that can see you in the dark.... even though your so shallow your transparent.. 


Wait a minute You aint heard it all yet... When I got home feeling Tired.. What did I do?... I went out on my Bike, like a health freak... OK I only did 3 Circuits.. but I did SOMETHING NOT NOTHING... 90% improvement from a whole chunk of my personal recent past... why?.. because a Big Soul reached out to make pe@ce..  and in gratitude I will live however short.. a fuller life.. & be content.. to Quote Shakespeare.. as he says it better than I could...






The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blest:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
Tis mightiest in the mightiest; it becomes
The throned monarch better than his crown.
His scepter shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty,
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings.
But mercy is above this sceptered sway;
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings;

It is an attribute of God himself;

And earthly power doth then show like God's
When mercy seasons justice.



Double Wow holy Cow... no wonder they are sacred in INDIA !

Thankx We will Skype.. just give me a little time ...

Have a Great Day.. and deeply Relax... in fact, "lean on Me"



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