Life energy draining

you know when your getting closer to the end than you have ever been... when the zest lust and urge to get up and go out diminishes 

too Lazy to be alive or lucky... is the common story of every waster and failure; too tired to fuck or wank... too tired to go beyond the norm only just enough... the least amount of conscious application needed to get through a day... back in 2004 I was alive with inspiration, making mediocre amateur songs on my quad-core i5, which still cuts the Mustard on any contemporary software or streaming source...

after 50 you begin to get wary of atomic molecular destruction, i.e. ageing if you relax and ameliorate to your fate all will be great, if you resist the inevitable without grace and peace in your being, you will expire faster than those with a loving gentle soul... don't worry about dying; that will take care of itself without your input, but you can still do about living your final days with the remnants of Love you may still contain... you can make another's life better for NIX = no pay or reward; for the very joy of giving/back all you were given so freely before for nothing...

Love makes so much sense in the end. 
some people never find that out...