Thursday, 25 August 2011

Still going hard..

Havant slept since last blog, and that was 10:50pm yesterday.. Called A @ 9am, coz he needs sombody to rattle his cage and rouse him, it was pouring with rain all over South UK last night and most of today...He had a Dr's Appointment and as he has no Licence, coz he lost it... x3 times ! for a total of 9 years... I offered to get him there, and after we'd go for a coffee or shop, Drug store was required so we did it all.. he's a tad more perky.. but theres a lotta hell for him to get through till he sees daylight again....

After I went to visit an old friend of My mums in a care home... and took "discounted" flowers to her... they were having "Activity Therapy" so I joined in, and I got a nasty De'javu however you spell it... coz I started to feel like an innmate.. we played Bingo, then memory therapy I guess.. remembering early childhood etc.. and basically interacting, I had to button my lip... coz I wanted passionately to join in.. and interrupt everybody..

I think I am getting prematurely senior... The Saddest thing You hear is that nobody visits them, since their Children took over the House....

Remember Benjamin Button?.. wot a crok of shit that Story is.. you could have told it in 4 sentences... wot a bore... Wot about reality!... Nope its too tragic to be entertaining... it was a Deep expieriance to sit with them today..

It gave me a revelation, so simple you could easily overlook it.. by being awake and "engaged with the present even if it requires looking into the past.. You get happier, and You burn calories.. coz sleep makes you fat.. believe me... I need Lubricating jelly just to get in the front door... My ass is so big I have to Shit in the bath, then shovel it into the toilet... sorry.. (I love disgusting humour)

So after leaving, was already breaking personal records of endurance, and eagerness to be alive & awake... then went to the Garage, coz I got a worry with a new fan belt that only just got fitted.. but worries like that are as nothing compared to the garden of positive conciousness... it is now 4:32pm and I still got some Charge left since getting up last night.. though another 5-7 hrs will see me in the cotton love hole... for all I am worth.. 

I have decided... to; Choose life !!! not the noose of Cowardice and defeat.. and I am so grateful to a certain special entity, who is a receptive spirit and a deeply Unusual and spiritually advanced Woman too.. nothing beats a deep Soul... that can see you in the dark.... even though your so shallow your transparent.. 

Wait a minute You aint heard it all yet... When I got home feeling Tired.. What did I do?... I went out on my Bike, like a health freak... OK I only did 3 Circuits.. but I did SOMETHING NOT NOTHING... 90% improvement from a whole chunk of my personal recent past... why?.. because a Big Soul reached out to make pe@ce..  and in gratitude I will live however short.. a fuller life.. & be content.. to Quote Shakespeare.. as he says it better than I could...

The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blest:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
Tis mightiest in the mightiest; it becomes
The throned monarch better than his crown.
His scepter shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty,
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings.
But mercy is above this sceptered sway;
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings;
It is an attribute of God himself;
And earthly power doth then show like God's
When mercy seasons justice.

Double Wow holy Cow... no wonder they are sacred in INDIA !

Thankx We will Skype.. just give me a little time ...

Have a Great Day.. and deeply Relax... in fact, "lean on Me"

T42&24T... cha cha

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