Addicted to dopamine...

At the end of the day every pursued pleasure ends in the transference of Dopamine between Synapses in the pleasure channels that runs through your brain like a "tiny grand Canyon"....

All pleasure is conveyed via Dopamine... every Drug every Sex Act is eventually encoded in dopamine... every fix each and every fuck, when you enjoy anything... you get a burst of fulfilment... achievement even... it is all a bubble of illusion:

dopamine is the Chemical of ecstasy... it is the reward that addicted people want to repeat, as if there were no end... but you cant buy it... anywhere, you get to it by other gates/means... 

You are a Slave to your own expectations of a reward, you dont even have to receive it directly, just ''the promise of it'' sparks those many internal hungry brain Chicks waiting for a Bite a sniff a kiss of satisfaction... they get placated and nourished immediately from, 'just a promise'

Feed me till I can take no more... there are no elevators back to normality... you must take it One step at a time, apparently 12 steps are sufficient...

''God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference''

As if anybody gave a fuck...

The Angry Man's Prayer

“God of peace and patience, help me in this moment of anger to slow down and invite you to guide both my character and conduct.”