XBOXING

Haven't turned on my XBOX in over a year, first a dozen updates, then I couldn't get into my account, bought a "Weekend pass" for the sole reason of playing POKER with real people for FAKE money... and I have been having good cards, won 150,000 in 3 hands...  over 20 mins, letting my animal instinct guide me...

Also Playing "ALIEN ISOLATION" a game of tension and much stress, you try it, you will be as creeped out as a tracked down Rapist... who is gonna finally pay for your wickedness... there is no escape from the Terror of just living...

3 weeks n 2 Days since Boo expired, it dont get any easier, in fact facing the rest of my pointless existence without Her Love and Comfort, I am getting a bit desperate to express tactile affection and love to Her warm little body... which is now Ashes... therefore beyond touch

Every morning My first thought is "How do a get through the Day without the Girl I love"... with every distraction technology can give one, escape this world into another, a fantasy just like this dirty filthy world of Self and excess... and then at the end of the Day, your bed is the warm Tomb of a Fraud where you cannot live Sleep or die, just lay awake and Cry till the tears turn to Acid blinding your eyes... Let me tell you the wicked never Die, they just Cry for all eternity...

If you don't live in the moment, you will wait forever to catch up... dont wait for your QUE, Jump the quantum Anticipate it for all you are worth, which is Nix... Realising you are nothing awakens the emptiness of a vacant soul, good luck in Hell best wishes...