Dont send People send Data.

The dust on Mars is Dangerous and toxic, the particles are so small and indestructible they are worse than Asbestos, did anybody tell you that? when you get it on your boots and go back to the "HAB" unless you shower in Liquid Nitrogen and Hurricane force winds to cleanse you, one day a particle will float free and inhabit the lung of a worker.... slow curtains... but nobody minds dying too much when it is slow... huh... your 2 thirds of the way there already... like Keith Richards who is Proof of the Devil himself...

its almost as bad as the Story of Alien (thank you Janis who took me to see it, in the Salon cinema, Glasgow) its not instant but it is terminal eventually... who wants to wait to find out.... just walk onto the landscape and decompress your Suit, and your blood will boil so hard red steam comes out your ears... and your eyes hit the inside of your Visor, like paint ball pellets...

Do what God did... Make a life-form out of nowhere... from spare DNA from a thousand spices of Species, to do your living for you... and then just sit back and watch... terribly exciting and mostly wonderful... better than Sex with an Angel...

it is Sex manufactured to make Angels... that is Why whoever invented Sex was onto a winner and endless, meaningless fornication (one of my favourite words these days)

the Point I am trying to make is dont bother sending People ANYWHERE, just make a "thing" more capable of surviving... than us, no point we only ever just get pictures back... do we need a finger to press the shutter...

send a true friend made of Circuits who is closer than a Brother, to make the experience for you, dont even do that: send a sentinel A.I to wait and watch for the signs of... George Knapp... God/Life/intelligence/criminality/bestiality/Fireworks/miracles and generally incredible things beyond all understanding...

INSTEAD: 

Just send in multiple Capsules the entire history of the human Race in indestructible Hard Drives with a "how to use Manual" every Book in every Language the entire History of Movies and the Evidence of all recorded Wars... (dont forget the Beatles) let the Superior Beings see what a race of wild Bugs we were... and find great entertainment in it...

Make somebody smile even a million years in the Future... Dont go to Mars... it is a Suicide Mission that is fated and doomed to destruction...

but dont Worry buy the time they want to go the Show is called off coz Elon is Broke, like some of his Rockets and nobody is coming back just to give you an SD card.... Ahem.. think about it...

do do it FEED THE HUNGRY...

Praying = Meditation...

O; Yes it does/Is... instead of wasting your living consciousness on sparkling Adverts and cheap home made Pornography... mixed cut and pasted to make the decent look indecent... Stop doing destruction, get used to being better and sacrifice yourself for Nothing... Like all the dead that died in all the Wars we have endured...

what a waste of time when you could actually do good by doing nothing other than "Pray for life that has a meaning" to know the wealth and value of a Gift of Love by thought alone to another living "thing" even a Cave filled with Spiders who mean you no Harm... Praying is the correct way to think...

it turns out there is nothing to be afraid of except... 

'other people'

Acceptance is deliverance... find a tiny piece of mind in trying to contemplate the universally indestructible... the positive wish against all odds that you might/may do Good, not for reward but for calm of conscience and peace of mind...

to be at peace before the end of life is a touch of immortality... Life is a succession of moments... some moments last longer than time itself... a string of Pearls, a succession of particles... of information and emotional response...

Life is like snowboarding down K2... if your lucky you might survive with just a broken Pelvis, fact is; it does not matter if you die... it was always your final destination.... Nirvana... the last ultimate Experience via your Will and Mind...

eternal and unchanging... all simple people feel these delusions of substance that is actually... doubt itself digesting you like a Bug eating Plant, like a Venus trap make an effort get up and out of Bed, do something that lifts your spirit,

the moment you give Love to another from your Marrow... you get admission to the consideration of acceptance to the Nebula's of spirit that surround you... You are more than just particles... you are a coherent plasma of energy...

Good Luck hope you get ''here there and everywhere''.... 

always Xx to be with the people you have lost...

Love is the highest form of Misery/Memory....

Sorrow is the Cross you must carry...

The Life Review...

Apparently before you kiss the dust, you get a Life evaluation, where you get to feel all the evil you ever inflicted to another... you feel it directly... and it takes almost a lifetime to relive it... You had no Idea just how bad and corrupt you were/are...

You will always be ignorant of your own wickedness, you deny it and try to bury it in material achievements but cruelty will follow you beyond the grave...

So many moment's "thrown away"... in thoughtless arrogance and intoxicated vanity... I used to be a Monster, but I have begged for redemption... but it is not so easy... you must SUFFER to learn... sad thing is a FOOL never learns... 

which makes you an Idiot... bordering on imbecility... I blame my genes, all my forebears were peasants farm workers thieves Drunks and frauds...

Can you really blame me for being a piece of Shit ! I cannot seem to avoid it... My Father was a fornicator My Mother was a Easy Gal She couldn't help being Seduced, Like Billions of young Gal's...

Rape is an investment into future mental aberrations that makes a normal Fetus another sack of crap, just like Daddy... and turns the Natural Truth into a misappropriated Dimension of hidden deviance... which inadvertently turns you into a lot less than you ever needed to be... corruption at Birth is a bad place to start...

Don't blame your Parents Condemn yourself... (for not knowing better) Jump into the fire Pit, where ~ brave Jews threw themselves to escape hell itself in the Nazi Camp's, that takes a ton of courage to deliberately end your existence... in the face of living Hell it is almost understandable... as Materialists have no Soul of God given courage to take that final fall... all they seek is pleasure...

they suffer the most as they they are strangers to Hope and Deliverance... a life without Hope or Love is the food of Insanity itself... a prescription for suicide sought at the soonest opportunity...

Remembering Julie Baker who overdosed 8 years ago, because she hit 50 and killed her dogs as well... Remembering Robert Kerr, Ian Holmes-Lewis, and James Telfer, it is shocking to see people drop all around you...

But remember one day it is You that gets Dropped....

MEMENTO MORI = remember you will die:

HOPE ''IS'' HERE

12 Princes Gdns...

wot a place, wot a face, wot a Vagina... all caused by accident by a kinda anti Synchronicity where opposites should be kept apart... But:

We got together 11/11/78 Yup the exact date we were doomed to Mate... what a night what a wonderful discovery... You actually meet someone who wants to Know You... who You want to know and explore back...

It Happened, My shame is limitless... when you get to the Life Review at the gate way of death...  You remember nights like this... You are Dead set for an old age filled with regrets...

Thank you for being a part of my pointless past... perhaps you are pointless too... the only antidote is self abuse of many kinds... people will do almost anything to Unwind... Hic... 

at least I have enough toilet paper for 10 tons of shit... after that I will use the carpets and curtains, till I have to rob my next door Neighbour; Madness has no rules until they are brought to bear on the aggressor...

come here...

This is the Past...

We are just replaying it...

Don't you get it yet... we are the past being remembered in delayed time... of course now everything is predictable, in theory... You are already dead.. but you have no Idea Yet... it is kinda Funny... you are the Easter Bunny that Kid's will tear into pieces...

in the end all you ever did was pump Faeces, every animal Eats other Animals and turns them into Poop... Hey... "we are all in the loop"  from life itself to Crap... I guess thats where existence is at... 

Paradise is Impossible because people are too used to having too much all the time till they go crazy-mad... 

A Trillion Dollars cannot buy one kiss from the dead...

Unless you honour the gone you become None.

Reaching for You... II

How I yearn to touch hold hug and pet you, tickling your tummy and holding you close... Emotional pain is greater than any broken Rib... or Ribs, crushed bones and fractured teeth... let alone a broken back or dislocated neck...

the greatest pain of all the seven senses; is within... tender touch behind your mind and never ever to forget... it hurts like an ache that never relents... when you would rather be dead than be alive, it is time for quitting all your subscriptions...

If I cannot be with you I would rather be with Nothing: there is no future for a living thing: Ignorance really is Bliss... thats why Children are so enthusiastically happy "all the time"... Whew...

but my Dear, living things Die... and when they do it can devastate you to madness or group suicide...

I kinda understand these many mass Killers... this is the way sub human retards express themselves... and 70% of Americans are just that...

Like wild dogs who have no soul morality or humanity... 

Thank you Boo... you had the Soul of a Saint...

Tired of Living...

I got no legitimate life... as I am a Bastard, I had no legal right to be born... like my brother he was a fuck in the dark that became a kinda human... like me... now we are both waiting to Die...

dont you get tired of just breathing and excreting... yeah me too... Old Age is a suspended Horror show where all you got are memories you would rather not have remembered... if your soul is so stained with sin, you cannot be washed clean... you are done for, 

You cannot hide the evil you have done to the arbiter of all creation... you need to Beg for redemption, but let me tell ya, it is not automatic...

sometimes "Sorry" is just not enough....

Thanks to 'all the Yanks' that read me... 

you are God Given... and a great Comfort...