Sunday, 20 May 2018

Rear View yesterday

I saw it almost all in between breaks for blowing my nose and weeping like an old lady at a funeral... I loved it all, got lost in the splendour of it, Why is the world so interested? 1.9b viewers... 

I am thoroughly Drained out now and am still exhausted by the emotional effort of watching... I am taking a few days off, gonna jump off a small hill instead...

yup... I need a fix of Beer.

Friday, 18 May 2018

Here comes the Bride...

I am preparing sandwiches flasks of Tea ready made with milk and sugar, a packet of Tobacco a pot of Mary J, an American flag and a British one, to sit and watch the Union of two continents, two Nations under one culture, and a blending of souls entwined forever in the Knot that there is no undoing...

I am So looking fwd to the event of the Year, She is a Really decent Person who no doubt will be embraced fully by our sovereign family of Royals, it is a real life, Fairy Story, and I am So glad for Both of them, to have found a soulmate to share such an esteemed fate, 

it is Disneyland "come to life" and over here in Blighty, I pray there is no unforeseen event like a terrorist plot to attack it, Let them have their One day in a Lifetime to Treasure forever, and let's see some Babys popping out of Megan pretty Promptish... So George and Charlotte can have some young pals to play with, I am proud to be British, the whole world plus ME will be watching from about 9am till the disco Reception and on to breakfast,

I Salute Harry for his courage to go to Afghanistan with his Pals on the frontline, and Megan did Humanitarian Work long before she met Harry so "fingers Crossed for both their future endeavours to bring peace love food and friendship to the lost and dispossessed wherever they may Be.. 

God save the Queen; may the world share in celebrating this very unique pairing from diverse backgrounds, let us hope Their kind of Love is the Lasting type, Harry needs the kind of love and reassurance nobody ever gave him before, She has sacrificed Her Career too, there is Mighty Morality and Motherly Depth in Megan, she is a Good girl, nobody has dragged up any dirt or roumour about her, Entirely because She is the Best of What America Makes, "Great People with Guts and Brains" and charm to soothe any thunderstorm

GOD BLESS EM BOTH +

Wednesday, 16 May 2018

Neodymium Magnets

I always loved Magnets, since My Brother put one against a CRT in 1961 and made the static bend in the direction of the "Current" the perpetual "Current" of a Magnet, (think about it) 

I also loved Gyroscopes as a child and had several small ones and one Big one, I will never forget, The Phenomena of life and all its hidden secrets are long from being Utilised and embodied into a new form of diametric inversion, to turn physics on its head so to speak,

The time is close for the truth to be revealed, Magnets are the key to gravity space time and the Universe, The Zero Point Field has "Never been closer" to Public Disclosure:

But the great Kull of Humanity will come first; before any real progress will ever be made, so enjoy the Summer, it may be your Last till Doomsday, and Beyond:

Active Malice

This Blog was going to be about the Random Malice strangers who display hate and aggression transmit to innocent bystanders, But I got railroaded, and never change my titles after the original impulse in case I forget what I was going to say, but I got distracted and hence, reacted...

I was out with my M8 Andy who is severely Brain damaged through overdoses, long-term illicit Heavy Drug abuse, and overindulgence wherever he could find something to get addicted to...

dont get me wrong He's a Good human being and I am very close to him, but he is such a cunt to himself... most days he spends in Bed until late afternoon, but he has blood condition, Diabetes, a sweet tooth and does not follow any recommendations on how to help his many conditions, so he is mostly "fucked up" most days, cant move cant walk, can barely talk, but about 2-3 times a week he wants to go out and Shop and look at the world, So I take him out, but he always makes a mess drops Ash everywhere, Burger bits and salad bits from Big Mac's, Spilling Gin and tonic in easy to open cans, 

But I don't mind all that much coz he has Human qualities that few People ever have, ironic innit? He occasionally Hires a Prostitute to come to his Home, while the Pimp waits outside, he pays £120 for it, and says he never enjoys it "she is always in a hurry for you to Come"

Well, today apparently He has a burst Bleeding Ulcer in his stomach and needs immediate surgery, which his Dr finally realised as His "movements" are BLACK, i.e. saturated in Blood, in other words he is digesting his own Blood...

super Yuk... he is going for an "Endoscope" wait for it... from Both Ends!... not at the same time I might add, so when they find a Hospital Bed, I have to take him there, eek, but fortunately I am on the Wagon atm: ('at the moment' for those who don't know that abbreviation, Ahem dum fukkars) so I am ready to Go AAM: (at any Moment:) or even ASAP, (everybody knows that one, come on...)

He got an intravenous Injection of Morphine from the Dr at his House, Lucky Bastard!... at Least it wasn't Dr Death, Harold Shitman, the Mass Disposer of worthless old people, (according to him)

So its quite Exciting, for me, because I find Fun in almost Anything, I adapt my mind and Mood to best fit the ongoing situation, even when they locked me up in a Prison Cell for DDI in 2011, I broke up the Styrofome Cup and made Eyeshades from it, and went to Sleep.... they didn't search my Car Coz I had a fat Ounce of Skunk under the passenger seat, it was still there when they released me, Am I blessed or WOT?

Call me weird strange and or Demented But I enjoy the Misery of Others with tremendous relish... because with My input I can actually assist them, to a better fate...

Hey Am I kidding, I don't fucking Know! I don't kill people, I just let them Die... it's much cleaner and there is no evidence hic, lol...

See You in Court...
*~'

Friday, 11 May 2018

Avicii = ABBA Incarnate

Most Old folks got no Idea Who or what Avicii is... Me too until, He died.. then I got interested, So I downloaded from dear old "YiFi" if you don't know how to use it, get someone to show you...

and I Saw the Bio/Docu "Avicii" and Let me tell you I cried for this poor Kid, he did a lot of suffering, and he hated Crowds, and Shows, He had terrible Health problems, that almost crippled Him, he was constantly in PAIN...

it took me 3 days to watch it all, as it upset me so much, Now He is dead, apparently Suicide, maybe to get away from the Pain and the Partys, All I can say is I pity that Poor Kid, who touched the stratosphere and cruised the Jet Streams, His life was not in vein or wasted, God have mercy on his stupidity, (for taking his own life)

but it is Selfish for wanting what He did not want:
which is to 
Be alive

He made his Choice Respect him for his Courage and pity the Melancholia that drives a near Genius to Erase itself.

This song is so autobiographical it really deserves to be put here, read his Words, he was a wise Young Man and quite likeable too... and He Was Kind to Animals, see the Movie and Meet him, he was a good Kid From Sweden, son of ABBA? no PHEONIX! He will come again when you discover him for the 'first' time...  
Rock on Bro sorry you had to go.





the Essence of Pleasure

Is a state of contentment without any worry whatsoever, and in that wonderful Dimension, to then enjoy other things, sensual and actual; intellectual and spiritual... "all together at once" it is Breathtaking and life fulfilling, it is literally "enjoying Each and every Heartbeat"

No Kidding, that's how segmented in small parts it is, it exceeds a perpetual orgasm, Yes really and Truly... for the duration of its cycle, I have accidentally stumbled across a mental state of mind, by just wanting it was a part of it, It's so Ironic...

as I am a total Failure in the so-called Real World, I failed got fired got shat upon outcast and excluded from polite society... My own Half Brother was fool enough to fall for Malicious Accusations against me from a Wicked Woman in Montreal*; who wrote to all my relations and told them, Awful things, I won't bother to repeat, 

The deep evil in people scares me profoundly and deeply, the poison and vitriol these "Low Spirits" transmit the vile things She said, is Worthy of Murder, when they tell me the Cancer is Terminal, I will Buy a ticket to MTL and Slash that MONSTER of humanity, a liar deceiver and sewer of bad fruit...

But that Was 1996: this is Now... I am so Deeply saturated in bottomless Joy and Happiness, it bears no resemblance to then, and the Grief and fraud She took me for... about £11,000 and more, She Stole all my Travellers Cheques, Which I had already Signed!!

Coz I am a low intelligent Dum ass Dick wipe... but a Spiritual Megolith compared to then... and to many contemporaries! who are miserable unfulfilled disappointed, poor sad and Aimless... I have the Key to the Kingdom, and the Walled Gardens of Paradise...

to get back to the Initial Momentum to write this Blog, it is because I can feel so much Pleasure and Fun, these days, knowing there are so few left, I really have never ever been Happier, and am really enjoying my Baby Merc, I have done almost a 1k miles it is a smoothe ride and I take great pleasure from each rotation of the wheels, and feel cosy and cosseted and Proud to be in it

I have 'never known' such freedom from worry and concern, if I could bottle it, and give it to You FREE, I would, but you don't need to drink it, just "read it" and you will be assimilated not to a Borg, but to a Pre-Angel, an eternal living soul with a Good spirt that the Universe Accepts as an Equal, by Unification of matter into an ephemeral spirit by and through pure Thoughts and good intentions alone

all you have to Do is realax be good in heart and be kind to Animals, and you Ass will be saved, Bitch!...

Love is all you need '~* 
didn't you know that yet? 

Saturday, 5 May 2018

The Word Wars:

Words are a Bit like soft approximate Mathematics, and yet, still can be very precise, also Flexible and Interpreted in diverse ways, like a Voodoo Algebra; Words can inflict pain and pleasure, 

The Meanings are the loose semantics of an approximation, towards an intellectual intimacy also misunderstandings, causing conflict, bad feeling and many regrets from thoughtless, outbursts of Unbridled spontaneous expression, 

Hot off the Anvil of sheer emotional forging from idle hours in anguish over "a phrase your X-Lover once said to you" that you only just remembered, a diabolical word time bomb that ferments then poisons the recollector... Those tiny Clues you realise meant "something else"

Better to say nothing than Anything at all?...
Or get angry and blow a blood vessel?...

words can cause a large and variable reaction at different extremes; They can also Hang you. words that mean nothing to You are the Reasons for revenge that those who do believe in those words can bring to You, 

Later is the time to get angry, and coldly plot your payback, it's fun to plan the Demise of Others even if you don't ever do anything... But one day some Day at some time, it is "time to Kill"  with the moment to Take your Spirit and cry vengeance as you plunge the knife into their ~Neck so they bleed slowly and "feel the Fear" is that who you are?

It is hard to resist Evil thoughts, but much easier to resist Evil deeds, that end in Cataclysm for all involved, the fear of punishment should be enough to teach that, but MALICE Knows no bounds, beware of it, if you see it or feel it, that is when words cross over into actions and reality, in War all People ever Die for is Word's, Promises of a New World, plenty for all, for the Fatherland, for God, for Whoever they lay down their Lives because they were 'Told to'... 

if there were more Cowards in this World there would be less War, coz we would be too scared to Fight... People don't die for any Specific Reason in War...
'THEY ALWAYS DIE FOR NOTHING'
check for yourself! Every Word is True...

Oh Yeah; depending on your limited perspective DUH:


Lost and Found

Hard to believe, but in '150 Acres of Park' today, I found My lost Hat!!! I could barely believe it, it was very dirty had some bird poop on it, yes that Hat, is the Hat, that my dear late Mother gave me, Reunited in harmony, after a little over one week apart, I bet it could tell a story or three...

Gonna give it a good soak and a scrub, then dry it in the Sun, which we have plenty of at the moment, I had my resistor done this morning (again) as the first one failed after a week, that was a strange week...

now I am going to have a nice Cup of Tea, and chill out until after lunch, Ciao Bella... I hope your Day is at least as fulfilling as mine is...

Thursday, 3 May 2018

Angela Koch or Kech?

Anyone from Alfeld in Germany who knows or Knew Angela Koch or Kech please tell Her someone is looking for Her.... 

in 1988 I was a DJ in a Nightclub in Alfeld unter Leine, called CAPRICE Oh la la, it was a whore house strip club all perfectly Legal, and one Gal made a personal Pure Friendship with me, She let me drive Her new Car through a Forest, on the other side of the Road, we had a really peaceful bond, without any intimacy sought for or expected, She wrote to me many times when I returned to UK, She helped me learn German, and wrote out a book in longhand! to help me with it...

I think of You lovely Girl, you must be a Mumma and a Granma by now, I hope someone sees this who knows You, Germany and Germans, in General, are very fine People with tremendous integrity and Loyalty, another German Pal was Fritz Nolting, a great Guy who put me up in his Daughters bedroom when I was Fired, for taking too much time off with the Girls, in all that time I did not get any rashes or infections, which is all down to Sauber = Clean well kempt people, they douched after every Client...

When the Boss couldn't make my Paycheck, I got paid in Pussy, Not Angela, like I said it was more of a Family Sisterly bonding, Sex was the last thing on my mind...

I was Laundering Money too and made a nice stack, but thats another Lost memory...

ANGELA Your a Great Gal, and I remember You Darlin; that's about it, peace be to those who seek the almost impossible... who knows the blessings you get that you never deserved in the first place...

Dreamers get in Line for paradise:
PAX CHRISTI = I feel great just like Jesus for a moment,

Relaxing into Happy...

It can be hard to be Happy if you worry about things too much, was I a fool to sell my old Car? ect... did I waste the Battery by ignoring its full charge for almost 3 weeks, am I an Idiot for believing in this little Merc,

I repeated Yesterdays 5+ miles at the same locations, I got up early bursting with surplus energy and bounding enthusiasm to get on my Folding bike again with Boo and get some Air, Blood pumping; and a vivid sense of being ALIVE, wow what a Beautiful Day 11.5 C: plenty of Temperature for me!! I hate heat and sunny summers, but I am acclimatising rapidly recently... miracles don't only happen to Saints!... whatever...

I had a full-Service yesterday afternoon, My M8 Rod did it all, but I got the wrong Oil filter, so we put new Oil in with a dirty Oil filter, and today its as black as it was when drained, Ho hum, I will use this Oil change as a Flushing for the whole engine, and do another with a NEW filter already ordered (right one this time) next week, also changed the Air filter, Fuel filter, Cabin filter, Eva I think enjoyed being Fussed over, coz afterwards She was perkier than normal,

So I am relaxing into Happy, Enjoying my Puppy Merc like a lovely big Toy a metal Teddy bear, a womb room on wheels, that makes you feel protected and soothed, I am aware of the suffering out there, and I do care, but we all need some time to escape from misery percieved and existent all over this sad Earth, but when you have been Abused yourself and tossed into the Persona non Grata outcast vile life form of constant rejection from all segments of Life from 3 to 64, I was too stupid to see it was partly my fault, and torment filled my early life, but hey, I bet it wasnt all Disneyland for you Neither?...

Let's be BFF's since we see things so alike, Ahem... BUT

I deserve some ME TIME, so I am relaxing into Happy, and denying any paranoid distractions, and just having simple fun and a degree of self-satisfaction for organising my life and mind and Budget, to have the most Joy available, To enjoy life you must abandon Grief and regret, and leave them on the Nightstand when you Dream out loud in real life and find a little Joy in a sweet Toy, not to mention my Dear Baby Boo, without whom I would be just a shadow in a lost memory of love...

I give thanks to God and My Mother about every 90 minutes to 5 hours, I cant tell you how to get HERE but it is a blessing you must be patient and wait for...

if you surrender deeply enough it arrives at once...

Wednesday, 2 May 2018

Hard Happiness

Hard but enjoyable day, tough work that makes relaxing more satisfying, My fidgeting hound woke me at dawn, there was no point in resisting her need for a Walk and a Wee...  but by fick it was Cold like Feb...

we went out at 11: ish; I put my almost new folding Bike in the back of Eva and my Drone with that New battery.. that's been charged for 2 weeks (bad practice, should use it the same day) but I was preoccupied with 'other things' ahem...

Boo Walked 5 miles with her little legs, I rode on my fold-out bike, coz She needs the miles and I am too old and fooked to walk it with my spine injury, then we went to Petersfield Lake/Pond whatever, and walked the entire circumference that made her total of 5m mind you I did walk around the Lake, I was well ficked by we got back to Eva, She was Thirsty, I always carry 3L of Water in a Tub and a Bowl for Her to drink from, The back of the Car has 1.2 seats, and I lower the double seat, so She has a single near side seat, and a flat back to lay down on, covered by a Foam mattress 5ft long and 2ft wide, plenty of space to lay and rest...

She was Shagged by the time we did the 3rd, n 4th walk, I just felt full of energy and most of all "Enthusiasm" to go do and be...

then before the Sun went down, I made the colossal effort to fly the fucking Drone!... I had been putting it off, coz I am so Lazy and pre-occupied, Fik Moi, I flew that Bitch like a Kamikaze, just to burn up the battery that had been fully charged for 2 Buggering weeks, thats how to kill these batts, Anyhows, I got 20 mins out of 89% Batt charge, my flight path is recorded on each and every single fight, and uploaded to DJX servers, so when I log on on a differant Platform I.E. Tablet instead of SM (smartphone S5 in my case) I have a new Tablet that out performs most i5 Laptops, and want to use that in future, so it will up date my statistice, So far I have only flown 5.9 Kilomiters in absolute total !!... after 11 Flights...

I am upgrading to a Long range transmitter so it can go further, coz I feel limited at it's present REAL range 3,000ft ...

whatever, It's fun but ultimately it is Hard to achieve Happiness without considerable discomfort... Unless you can think far enough ahead to prevent a total disaster...

The Meek Shall control the Drones