Friday 1 September 2017

Sorrow sadness and servitude;

The Sorrow sadness misery and subservience to that trio, not to mention the guilt that is a chain around your heart, the blood, and tears, the idiocy is enough to self-detonate.... but there is still some pleasure to be had before you go tit's up...

The ethereal yet heavy chains of slavery to sorrow as thin as a spiders web but heavier than lead, that perpetually fills your head like an echo that will not come to an End: it's a miracle there are not more suicides worldwide, when the living despair that consumes the hearts of sensitive souls to insanity is so prolific, they opted to do it SLOWLY, by each false Lover, every Drink and fix of pleasure you can stomach.... till they collapse in a heap of silicone and fake white teeth..

the pile of guts you must carry in a handcart, on your way to hell... to feel constant pressure to attain expectations and to achieve.. is the nearest to living hell itself.. when your mind is infiltrated with deep fractures of playful Paranoia.. at that time all you want to do is Sleep.. (like I did after my "Honey died" 'was put down' actually..) I turned my back on Life altogether, it was a sadness beyond bearing...

I slept 13-17 hours a day just to kill time and escape life.. for nigh on 7 years... so I slept 4 out of 7 years of my life.. Until I started using Speed.. to pick me up and chuck me out of bed..

when you get old you can barely push it; as if fills to overflowing.. not just heavy; it stinks too; so many painful memories, that recur and haunt ones inner visions in memory's of a long tapestry of fallen battles; past days.. long gone and all but dead except in your solitary mind..

it's intermittent.. but a haunting nevertheless, for 8 years after My 1st Dog 'honey' died, I was in denial that I needed another one.. nothing could replace Her, I was wrong...


Boo did.. and She Does.. to love a living thing.. with joy every day, makes anyone's life a little better in so many ways.. And..

Sorrow is captured and filtered.. via the idiosyncratic random reflexes of a "Pet Animal" and turned into long moments of contentment.. if you have never been loved by a "not so Dumb Animal" then you have never loved from the soul... to return what is; a debt beyond repaying.

where else can you truly find purity of Heart and intent.. that asks you for nothing more than, a crumb of love... but a crumb of Love is enough when you find the absorbing contemplation.. that just to be with them... is enough; and all you could ever want...

an element of deep contentment is the key to a Spiritual life,.. not what you will never have... but "wot You got right here and now''... to want for more than you presently need, is Greed...

and we know where that leads... when too much is never enough; take a breath; stand back from the material world... and be content with what you have.. and Sigh with all your heart... and ask;

What more do I deserve... then in a flash an answer comes back.. and a resonating voice from beyond the forthcoming grave says...

"Nothing this time"... if you survive the transition of Death itself.. you may one day... be seduced and entangled by all that you desire... yet be half the person you were before...

so Kiddies; be careful what you wish for... to want more leads to less.. what comes naturally will lead to success... the key that opens the door to every house.. in the mansion of many rooms, starts from knowing the address?... not many find it;

but all are welcome... to the place with no name, that exists in every brain.. stop striving, start thriving... it's that easy and; that close.. follow your woes... god knows the result... you cannot lose a race that you are not running in?.. Poor old BOLT has had his Day, even lions Die for want of Youth...


There is no love like ANIMAL LOVE... you are safer with a Wild Animal that trusts you, than any human with a knife in their back pocket... and that aforesaid animal will gladly give its life to Save you selflessly sacrificing its future, for your present:

Today: I had momentary transcendental infarction; a very long infinite moment, that made me into a Fountain of Water in gratitude to my circumstances, and my heart became every drop of Water, as it hit the wind on it's way down back to Earth and fractured into smaller and smaller droplets...

I became each droplet, and each Drop repeatedly sang, 'thank you' for this wonderful fulfilling soothing beautiful moment of peace and total tranquillity, I felt the promise and Certainty of eternal life and becoming consciousness again in a fresh embodiement.. filled with Love so delicate most people cannot feel, as their selfish Egos block out all goodness... become with the collective:

never be too tired; to Make Peace; even with yourself: it can change the future of Your personal Mankind: immediately, and repeatedly to make amends with your soul and old friends... Love an enemy today, or maybe next week even..

at least patronize one if you have the energy (ツ) 

Keep it light, all good comes from it.

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